back from work.. tired, nothing new..

realised all my posts here are not really happy.. dunno y.. thinking back, i led quite a sad 'happy' life.. but that kinda 'hapiness' is short lived, only for that moment.
i want something mroe tangible, more concrete. something i can really be happy about.. other than finding God, nothing beats that..

after my horrendous past that destroyed me, it really changed Dennis completely. the one that i was previously 'evolved' into someone very different.
i am older than my age. i experience things way earlier than i should. theres good and bad bout it, but i rather take my time and experience things at the appropriate age. example is like smoking at 14, when it should be 18.
that example i guess explains enough.

now, i got so sick and tired of nearly everything.. been there, done that..
what else?


at least now when i think back, ive more friends. REAL friends. friends that cares for me, bother to find out how am i, my well being. bother to spend time to meet up with me to catchup.. both from Church, and outside church. i will surely hold them close to me dearly.

guess being w/o a gf really taught me much eh = )

random.
from today onwards, im gona start doing things and achieving them, be it goals or some character shaping.
i wana dare myself to be more random, more out of the blue.
not saying that im not that already, but i know that i am more of it myself.
doesnt mean anything if i make myself more random, but just the Dennis that i thought i was last time.
time for some catchup eh =}



guitar practice time.....